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SUCCESS – according to Emerson

In these precarious times we are currently living in, it feels important that we all ask ourselves this question, “Who am I and how can I better contribute to help humanity at large during this madness?” We should all be asking what we can do individually to make the world a better place on an hourly basis. IMO.

In regards to our current political situation here in the USA, if you follow my past blogs, it is quite clear that I have been someone who has been INCREDIBLY outspoken and very “political.” Up until lately that is… Let’s just say I have met some folks and had some experiences which have made me turn the tables on the current 2 party system and all it’s warring with each other. I’ve simply had it! This is me allowing myself NOT to launch into “conspiracy therapy” yet to say that I have finally seen the clear writing on the wall and that the “establishment” has their fingers in every single little last crumb of the pie. If you are interested in reading more and having some FACTS thrown your way, you can contact me directly through my gmail and I will be happy to send you loads of information.In my continuing recovery, which as very little to do with following any previous dogmatic structures like AA, I have come to realize first that I am extremely lucky and very blessed to wake up each day healthy and clear headed, and second that it is INDEED my job (as I do believe it is everyone’s) to be of service to my fellow human. PERIOD. However that looks to you, it is the reason I feel in every fiber of my being why we are all here and chose to be alive during these seemingly tumultuous and transformative times.

Today, I would very much like to tell you the story about Willie and Betty Mitchell and “Ruby the Red Bus.”

Almost 4 months ago, I met a wonderful little old man in the desert named Willie Mitchell. Willie had Ruby sitting – pretty much not driven for 10 years, on his remote desert property in Twentynine Palms, California, just outside of Joshua Tree. He also had a beloved 1970 VW Fastback, both of which I purchased for a literal song. At first, I thought I was going to be able to make a mere few grand off the bus and keep the Fastback, (who I have affectionately named Betty White) after Willie’s beloved soul mate and wife who has debilitating Cerebral Palsy. Between the time I purchased the vehicles and picked them up, I came to realize the immense value of them both, but mostly Ruby as she has the ORIGINAL PAINT! And just look at those curves! 😉 Happy 50th birthday, Ruby!

Despite the ever elusive opening date of the DMV here in California, yesterday I bit the bullet and went out to the desert in 105 degree heat and 40 mph winds to finally pick up my Ruby. When I arrived, Ruby started right up, but she had some issues (of course) that kept Willie and I between the Advanced Auto Parts in town and his home (which entails driving down 10 miles of desert roads) for over 4 hours. By the way… it was Willie’s 78th b-day yesterday, so I managed to convince him on one of our long dirt road trips to town to let me buy him a darn cake!

While Willie was out in his garage replacing the starter, I sat in the AC in the house with Betty who is now completely unable to walk because of her CP. I listened intently to her slurred speech as it was fairly clear to me that it had been a VERY long time since she spoke to anyone besides Willie at length. During our 3 plus hour talk, I had to excuse myself to go to bathroom to cry, serious tears of sadness for how a beautiful soul as hers gets that lot in life and is still so unbelievably pleasant. Alongside were also tears of joy that these two have found one another and love each other so dearly. Betty profusely apologized for the condition of their home and I responded… “I do not judge people by their things. It is a roof over your head and you are lucky to have one these days as a lot of people do not.” That statement is the god’s honest truth. However, I simply felt terrible that they were living in such conditions as she is paralyzed from the waist down and Willie is well… just a guy after all. By the way, Willie carries her tiny little 100 lb self to the car and back when they go out occasionally <3 <3 <3

Coming full circle with the point of this story… yes I did realize in between the time I purchased Ruby and Betty that they both were indeed worth some serious cash. Ruby is up for sale first and foremost and I have decided to auction her to the highest bidder. (more on that in a minute.)

Just this morning, a friend who is entrenched in the current political battle who I met on Facebook (while previously battling myself LOL!) asked me “What are YOU doing?” ~ possibly insinuating that because I am not consistently fighting to trash tRump and elect Joe Biden, I am not doing anything. (By the way, now I see that time I did spend as a complete waste ~ banging my head against the wall uselessly each day and I no longer have time for that in my PRECIOUS existence.) Knowing my motto of late is to help someone/anyone that is in front of my very face in my 3D reality each and every day, and after spending the afternoon yesterday with these two wonderful kind and very simple souls, I have decided to give Betty and Willie a large sum of the profits from the auction (accompanied by their story to hope to raise more funds) of these vehicles and to go back and help Betty clean and spruce up their home a bit. Why? Just because it is the right thing to do and because every time I give something FREELY and unconditionally from my heart and expect nothing in return, it makes me KNOW that I have been successful.

What will you do today to be successful?

Namasté

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NO JUSTICE – NO FREEDOM

And so it is. Welcome to the United Police States of America 2020. Here we are in tRump’s Great Again America, the USA where a black man can do nothing at all to get handcuffed, thrown to the ground, assaulted, and have his neck knelt on until his airways are crushed and he dies. Yup, that is America, folks, in living color, under constant watch by big brother, and extracting the very freedoms we have left one by one by one…

Having just ventured back to reading my very first blogs entered here on my then brand new WordPress site back in March/April of 2012 while I had been wandering the East and a part of the Occupy movement, I now see that “it” was just starting to come into focus to the masses – “it” being the corrupt, greed driven, capitalistic, patriarchal “lobbying” (aka bribery) by billionaires, mostly white, mostly male “entitleds” and their wealthy companies in this country to keep their pockets and theirs of their cronies as well overflowing. “It” became pretty damn clear to the lot of us that we were in the grasp of a Corporatocracy – an economic and political system controlled by corporations and corporate interests.

The entire financial collapse of 2008 was just a mere foreshadowing of what could possibly ensue on a more grandiose scale in this country. Fast forward a mere 12 years and look what we are on the verge of? If you think that the economy of the USA is going to recover from this whole coronavirus madness, you might do yourself a favor and study some economics. And, like myself, you might take the initiative to find another country to live in. (Very few reading this know that my long term dream/desire to leave this dysfunctional country is actually in progress ~ it’s now a reality.) Plans are firmly in place. Because I am under the impression that I am someone being “monitored” by our wonderful government, (who is not if you have a cell phone?,) I will not be disclosing my details, rather assure you that I will be safe and sound on another continent well before November 3rd. Due to the fact that I no longer trust that our voting process is legitimate, coupled with the belief that Herr Orange will be handed another 4 years by Putin if indeed there is even an election held, I have indeed made arrangements to do exactly what these tRump supporting #fakepatriots have DEMANDED I do if I don’t like it here in their “Great Again America”…. LEAVE. For a while I fought. For a LONG while I fought hard, the bulk of the battle ensuing since opening my eyes thoroughly after 9/11. I do see now clearly that there is no longer any freedom OR any justice in this country. We have seen a Fascist, Malignant Narcissist (FMN) hijack our democracy. We have seen a Supreme Court nominee who is an obvious alcoholic and who also sexually assaulted multiple women get ushered on the bench. We have seen Moscow Mitch who is SUPPOSED TO BE the Senate Majority leader, pass on by every single last little bill that does not benefit the über wealthy and corporations. We are witnessing before our very eyes, the carefully calculated dismantling and destruction of our democracy brought to you by the Russian mafia (whom Trump owes billions or rubles to) and by China who actually leaked this chemical warfare virus. Do you still think Covid19 came from a bat? SMH – Really folks, if your eyes are not opened up wide right now to the evils and the lies of our government, please just stay out in the “silence is compliance” pasture with all the other masked sheep! And oh and keep watching cable news networks that are very carefully psychologically designed to keep you blind and “sheepy.” 

This message is brought to you by someone who has been traveling widely her entire adult life to various parts of the world. And my plan is to see a whole lot more of it before my time is up. This message is brought to you by someone who has been VW Westfalia traveling (and sometimes actually dwelling in one) for over 20 years in this country and Canada. This message is brought to you by someone who has ALWAYS been on the side of justice and has fought hard against ALL of the injustices of our government and the world at large. Why? Because this country, as it was designed to do, gave my father and grandfather freedom from Communism and Nazism! My father often uttered with a slight tear in his eye the last decade of his life that he did not envy his daughters to live in this upcoming world, but mainly the USA who he always said until the tRump reign of horror, gave him the “VERY BEST LIFE.” My father tended to be a tad racist as many were from his generation, yet he saw and LOVED Obama for the brilliant leader he was. And he hated the orange mess with a vengeance.  Yes… this message is brought to you by someone speaking the truth! [btw… I have always taken pride in referring to myself as Spiritual. However, if speaking the truth makes me non Spiritual, so be it. If being angry makes me non Spiritual, so be it. I have always been a rebel and a passionate woman and will be until I go to ashes saying “What an amazing ride!”] And please excuse me if I do not usher in kindness to all the sheer morons who voted for this madness in 2016 and especially for those still supporting it. No, there is not a single stitch of kindness in my heart for you all. Is there compassion for your ignorance? Maybe just a tad, but it stops there. Hell, my own “Christian” sister posts quite often on her Facebook about “keeping God in the White House another 4 years!” It’s far from humorous to me. My father is rolling in his ashes that both my remaining sisters voted for the piece of shit. This soul-less being who openly mocked a disabled reporter, literally claimed to (and did) grab women by the pussy, the one who now daily Tweets/bullies his very constituents and our once free press, [and most importantly, was SIX 6 times bankrupt [it was actually his hotel and casino chain, right?] is YOUR president, not mine. Sure, let’s hire Donald Trump to fix our economy! What a huge joke. Due to the fact that we didn’t like a black man (excuse my horrific slang “nigger”) as our president in this horrific now evidently white-supremacist country, let the reality TV show #fakebillionaire run this country right into the ground (and usher in blatant white supremacy and racism to the hilt while he’s at it) while completely dividing our nation and destroying the unity it once had. Go ahead, give the son of a bitch another 4 years and you will see just how GREAT America can be with our cities riddled with homeless, mentally ill and starving, while once very hard working families wait in lines a mile long just for a box of food to feed their family for a week. Yup, America full on tRump is here and it sure ain’t pretty. Why the hell would I want to spend the rest of my life in a country that is clearly tanking or spend even one more precious ounce of my energy fighting it any longer? Although I have done some really stupid shit in my life, I have definitely never been that stupid!

Finally… this message is brought to you by someone who knows when to throw in the towel and surrender. This message is brought to you by someone who has been van traveling [not so freely] during #coronamadness and the masked #insanityofhumanity. This message is letting you know that the grave of our democracy has been dug. Our “freedoms” have all but vanished. If you are wise, you might do one of two things… #1. Move rurally and get enough land to grow your own food and live off grid. #2. Leave this #shithole (coined by our FMN, racist motherfucking “leader”) country for any land/nation that still has semi-sane leadership and some semblance of freedom. I’ll be the one waving to you from the plane window well before November 3, 2020. Auf Wiedersehen. Adiós. Addio. Sayōnara. Doviđenja Adieu. Hasta la vista, baby.  I wish you all luck and skill because you are going to need it living in this rapidly approaching 3rd world status nation that was ONCE the ultimate land of the free and home of the brave. It sure shit ain’t anything about that any longer!

Oh and please still remember…

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THE AGE OF AQUARIUS

Today on 12/12 at 12:12 am, we had the powerful transformative energy of the last full moon of 2019, the Cold Moon. I fell asleep right after viewing it and just before awakening this morning, I had a dream about tRump. He actually was showing humility! Then, I realized it was just a dream 😉 It is very true that this time we are currently living in/through with his pending impeachment etc and overall the energetic changes our planet and humanity are enduring are in place for us all to wake up, abré los ojos! There are a few things (possibly facts???) I realized about #45 and his “followers.”

1. The majority of his “followers” are born and raised Americans. But, at one point SOMEONE in their ancestry – SOMEONE was an immigrant! The only true settlers of this country were the Native Americans and just look what we did to them? 😱

2. The majority of his followers are white males from the age of 30-80 who probably secretly aspire to be him or at least this arrogant, wealthy fake persona he exudes.

3. The majority of his “followers” have never been outside of the US, maybe not even their own state or county.

4. The majority of his “followers” have never had to fight for rights regarding their race, ethnicity, gender, or sexuality, or ANYTHING really difficult in life where their mental health and sheer existence depended on it. In other words, they are entitled.

5. The majority of his “followers” are white supremacists, who believe that the USA and that this country is the greatest in the world or superior to other nations. 🤦‍♀️

6. The majority of his “followers” are materialistic and are so proud of the so-called economy and it’s recent “success?” What they don’t realize is that the reason more jobs have been taken is because the minimum wage hasn’t risen in TEN LONG YEARS (sure blame Obama too if you wish) and the cost of living has quintupled. So these so-called “created” jobs (minimum wage) that have always existed have been filled by the poor – lower middle class people who need to now work 3 jobs just to keep food on their table and a roof over their heads. We’re not talking about jobs with benefits, health or otherwise either!!!

Last but not least, WE ARE LIVING IN PERILOUS TIMES IN THIS COUNTRY. We are more divided as a nation than any other time in the history of this formed “United” States. Whether you hated Obama, hated Hillary or just want to be a #fakebillionaire like #45, the time is now to WAKE UP, love your neighbor and encourage them to be INCLUSIVE. We are all SO fortunate to live in a country that has luxuries like running water and electricity. And this division is going to kill us all if we don’t change now.

Click on the image to see the video and hear this amazing tune!

As we approach the “Age of Aquarius” shining brightly in 2024, maybe it’s time we listen to that song again and realize that every single human life is precious and NO ONE IS ENTITLED to anything more than their neighbor, friend or enemy. It’s time to LET THE SUNSHINE in and send hate and discrimination packing to the past.

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CHOOSING THE LEFT – a tribute to Barbara “B” Ruof.

On this, the 2nd anniversary of the day we lost my sister Barb to suicide, I feel like I have a whole lot on my heart to express.

First, I hope the folks reading this who know me and who are opposed to my outspoken progressive nature might realize that my beliefs are not simply liberal, independent or even democratic, yet HUMANITARIAN. And there’s a whole lot of life experience that shaped those beliefs. I’ve definitely chosen the road less traveled in this life and plan to keep doing so.

Barb was such a major influence in and on my life. She was the first born of us 4 girls and 10 years older than I, the youngest. My Mom went through a difficult time with my Dad when I was young so, Barb stepped in as a motherly figure until my late teen years, when I feel like our relationship transformed into a best friendship. She was the one who told me over and over to “just get a dog!” when I called her in a heartbroken state over relationship difficulties or endings. Unfortunately, she never had the opportunity to meet Mona. I know she would have fallen in love with her. Mona won’t be with me forever, but having her has irrevocably changed my life and I will never live without canine love in my life again! Thanks to my sis for the push to rely on the love of an unconditional vs. us flawed humans!

Barb taught me about Spirituality, about trusting my instincts, about determining right from wrong. She taught me how to respect differences of opinion and to engage in intelligent conversation. She also taught me to stand by my morals and ethics and to not take any shit from anyone! She introduced me to the wonderful city of San Francisco where I lived for 18 years after she, her husband and boys, much to her eternal discontent, left it and moved back to NY. I feel so fortunate to have lived in a place where all people were treated with respect no matter their race, creed, color or sexuality. Gratitude is forever etched in my heart and mind for the period of time I was able to enjoy a bohemian life in what I still believe is the most beautiful city in this country, if not the world. There’s good reason behind people proclaiming to have left their heart there. I certainly did.

In 2010, I left San Francisco for many reasons, but mainly because I was planning to get married and move to Europe to be with my long time partner. That relationship fell apart and so did I right along with it. My Spirit was crushed for multiple reasons and being back in Western NY after all those years away, I fell into a deep depression realizing that I was in a place where even though I was rooted/reared for the first 18 and formative years of my life, it felt completely foreign to me. I heard the word “nigger” uttered by an ex-boyfriend and cringed. I heard derogatory remarks about immigrants and gays all the time. I realized quickly that this wasn’t a place I fit in any longer. AT ALL… My life and beliefs had become anything but conservative and DEFINITELY in no way, shape or form racist or feeling as though us pasty whites are or have ever been superior to anyone else!!! Living in major cities like Brooklyn, San Francisco and Oakland for decades will do that to you as diversity abounds and different cultures and colors of skin are cherished, not abhorred. Also, I feel honored and fortunate to have spent ample time with and in Native American ceremonies. It was with the only original inhabitants of our country that I learned how much we MUST have immense gratitude for and cherish and respect our mother earth for she sustains ALL life! Without her health, we are simply going to perish.

My favorite sister and I were estranged for the last year of her life for a few reasons, my addictions, her discontent with how I was living (or dying) but basically because her drug addiction had taken such a toll that the person I knew and loved all those years was barely recognizable, a mere shadow of the extremely bright light she used to be. And even though she had attempted suicide once before and lived to be honest with her doctors, they still kept giving her opioids and benzodiazepines like they were candy. Honestly, Barb didn’t take her own life because she was depressed. She was one the most intelligent, funny and upbeat persons I have ever known. The drugs stole her optimism. They stole her energy. She was in pain. Most importantly, she felt like she had accomplished what her “why” was in her life by raising her two sons and seeing them both partnered and happy. It simply was… in her eyes… her time to go… Understanding this all doesn’t take away the pain of missing her every single day, but I do believe she stayed as long as she could considering the condition she was in. It took a lot of courage to do what she did. Unfortunately, it left all of us behind in a lot of pain. Matter not the reasoning behind it, the survivors of suicide are always devastated and damaged.

Lastly, I have Barb to thank for my adventurous travel spirit and the ability to just pick up and go. The first time I was leaving the country on a solo adventure from my then home in Brooklyn in 1988 with just a backpack and a ticket to Switzerland where I knew no one, but had planned to travel by train to the then Yugoslavia (now Croatia) to meet my father’s family to find out more about him and our homeland, I will never forget my phone conversation with Barb the night before. I kept telling her I just couldn’t do it, that I was scared to death to get on a plane and go where I knew no one and had no definite plans. She basically said “(“A” = short for Aunt) if you don’t get on that plane, I am going to come down there and drag your ass on it!” And so I did. And so I had the first of many, many, amazing travel adventures. And so I realized that the USA was not the center of the Universe. We are but a speck of dust in a big wide world of interesting diverse people, cultures and places. Travel has been the best education of my life, hence my addiction to it.

As much as I will never regret being near my parents during the last years of their lives and present when they passed, I am definitely ready to go back to the left/West where I feel like I am in good company and surrounded by folks with common PROGRESSIVE beliefs about the importance of diversity and the well being of the planet and it’s inhabitants. If I shall be referred to further as the “radical left,” so be it! I am proud to be a humanitarian and a bohemian with much respect for and thanks to my sister Barb’s influence.

My wish for you Sis is that you are having lots of deep belly laughs wherever you are… maybe hanging with George Carlin? Dad? Mom? Somehow, I know you’re close by.  Just know I plan to live this next segment of my life to the very fullest with you in mind and heart. And definitely NEVER EVER again will I live without a dog! ~Namasté “B”  #BarbaraRuof

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WHEN SILENCE IS COMPLIANCE

My beloved momma always told me that one gets more with honey than with vinegar. I do have to agree with her wholeheartedly. AND, there is very good reason to be fuming about the time we are currently experiencing in our “government.” There is no reason to be sugar coating ANYTHING going on in our country right now or for the lack of cohesion we once had with our staunch allies. The ostrich buries it’s head in the sand when danger is approaching as if not to see it, hoping it is also not seen. Rarely, does it escape it’s fate. So, if you refuse to speak up because you prefer your “politics” to be personal or secret or because you are afraid of what people might think if you speak up, I see that you ARE part of the problem! We need voices now more than ever.

After my sister Barb left us last September, I took a break from debating and politics, mostly from bantering with people still supporting what was happening in the District of Criminals and worldwide with our current “regime.” Her sudden death was an impetus for further self-examination, and more importantly, to focus on what was a priority in my life because life is indeed very short. With the latest escapade of tearing apart children from their parents, I am indeed now re-engaged and re-enraged with what is happening because defending my right to live in a republic that is a DEMOCRACY FOR ALL is important to me. The difference is that I will no longer battle with #45 supporters. There is no reasoning with sheer ignorance. When the FACTS are available at our fingertips, (literally) there is no reason to go on believing the lies, unless you are just plain old lazy and/or addicted to Fox news. What we have happening in our country right now is already written in history. And to think there are those who think it can’t repeat itself? Well, I have news for you. It already is AND IT MUST BE STOPPED!

I’ve been called by the folks who support the Alt-Right all the names in the book, a “libtard”, a “snowflake”, a “democrap”, and sometimes with an iota of respect, a “seriously misguided liberal.”  The names do not bother me one bit. People react because they don’t like the BOLD truth, especially when you can prove your point with a FACT, like the FACT that separating children from their parents seeking political asylum here is something that was instituted by AG Sessions and Herr Trump in April of 2018. This has NOT been happening for decades! However, I have decided that I’m not going to waste any more of my precious life moments pointing the facts out to those who wish wish to debate without doing FACTUAL research. If you are ignorant enough to believe the lies coming from #45 and his cohort’s mouths without doing your own research, or to watch only one news station when thousands around the world are all supposedly spewing #fakenews, then you can keep your head in the sand.  BUT DO KNOW THAT YOU ARE PART OF THE PROBLEM, NOT THE SOLUTION TO A BRIGHTER FUTURE FOR YOUR CHILDREN, YOUR GRANDCHILDREN, FUTRE GENERATIONS WHO DESERVE A FAIR GOVERNMENT… If you argue that people should not be crossing the border illegally, well, think about the FACT that you were born in this country BY SHEER LUCK. Someone somewhere in your ancestry crossed a border! This land only belongs rightfully to the original settlers, the Native Americans. The pasty white men stole it from them.

Oh, one last FACT for those who wish to make assumptions about my political affiliations… Let me just clarify that I am a registered Democrat. BUT THE BE ALL END ALL IS THAT I AM A HUMANITARIAN. (God help you if you don’t know the definition, but you can easily click on the word to see it!) More folks might wish to try it on for size! ~Namasté

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PULL YOURSELF UP BY THE BOOTSTRAPS

Since 1998, the suicide rate has increased 25% in this country. Mental illness continues to plague our society and it continues to be gravely misunderstood and judged harshly. This week we lost 2 very successful folks who were in the spotlight, yet how many left us that will not make the headlines???

When my sister took her own life last September, I received a few texts from friends who commented on her mental health issues, insinuating that those were the precursor to her tragic act. My first reaction was to defend her, saying it was NOT mental illness that caused her to take her own life. And I have to ask myself, why did I feel the need to defend her mental health so staunchly? My answer is because for the most part in today’s society, depression and anxiety are shunned, thought of as “bad” or something that we possibly have control over. Resources and funding to help the mentally ill are consistently being cut as the disease spreads like a wildfire through America. And the less resources the mentally ill have, the more end up homeless on the street. When I first arrived in San Francisco in 1992, I was astounded how many folks were wandering the streets. By the time I finally left SF in 2010, there were literal camps of homeless below the freeway on 13th street. My heart simply could not take seeing them all on a daily basis. How in the name of all that is GOoD can we call ourselves the greatest nation in the world when these serious problems plague our society?

For many years, I personally suffered from SEVERE depression and anxiety. My depression was SO crippling at times that my good friends who had compassion and an inclination of what I was enduring would come and stay with me, just so I could find an iota of comfort and/or not harm myself. I can’t pinpoint exactly how, why or when my depressive episodes and anxiety lessened. All I can say is that I AM SO ETERNALLY GRATEFUL THEY DID because those snippets of hell, those dives into the abyss of unimaginable sadness made me understand exactly why people like Anthony Bourdain and Kate Spade hung themselves.

My mother suffered from depression. My grandmother was heavily medicated for 45 years of her life for mental health issues. My great grandfather had my great grandmother committed for her mental health and then he took his own life. So, was(is) my tendency towards depression and anxiety genetic OR as my sister Barb had mentioned often, learned bad thinking? Quite honestly, I’m not sure if there is a definitive answer to the cause of my own disease. I have come to attribute my own depression towards being born ultra-sensitive in a society that doesn’t nurture sensitivity. A great book I read to help understand this was “Self Care for the Self Aware” by Dave Markowitz. I also kept deep, dark secrets for many years. And I also used drugs and alcohol to avert my feelings. Since I ceased using drugs (all street and pharms) and alcohol 18 months ago, my depressive episodes have decreased significantly. AND I attribute my “recovery” to having great counseling as well as digging into those places and secrets held inside that haunted me for years. Most importantly, I became willing to open up and not hide anything any longer, and that included my anger and sadness which I believe turned inward was a huge cause of my blues. I decided that I didn’t care what anyone thought of me or how I chose to live my life any longer. I decided that I was going to unconditionally love myself…. AND get a dog!!! So, my “fixes” may not be permanent, nor may they be yours. The most important thing I can suggest for those suffering is to not be afraid to find some help, to find a compassionate ear and last but not least, DO NOT LISTEN TO PEOPLE WHO TELL YOU TO “PULL YOURSELF UP BY YOUR BOOTSTRAPS”! As a society, we owe this disease a lot more attention. And…. we owe those who suffer chronically from it A LOT MORE COMPASSION.

 

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TIME TO REMEMBER

It’s been a while. It’s been a long while. My fingertips have missed hitting these keys. Anyone who is a writer or knows about writing knows that inspiration is necessary for the words to emerge. I’m hoping that today is a day where my thoughts translate into a message that helps people discover their potential, their passion, their true nature of living as a Spiritual being having a human experience.

A friend posted this meme on Facebook a few weeks back and I hung onto it in essence to bring forth a message of hope to those who are searching for their place in this seemingly crazy world. When I think back about my life as an innocent, before the world told me who I should be, I see a sweet little girl who loved to play with her kitty cat. I see a little girl who LOVED to be outside in nature and fresh air. I see a little girl who absolutely hated to wear a dress and loved to get dirty. I see a little girl who was very in tune with what was around her and very much focused on love. Unfortunately, a lot of what I experienced growing up was not a positive environment for a child to be raised in. This was not my parent’s fault for they did the best they could. I have long ago forgiven them. AND I have learned that life is always what you make of it and that our experiences can either be used to enhance/enrich our life or they can be a deterrent to our growth. I do believe all in life is meant for our growth. When we have what we may perceive as a negative experience, I believe our job is to look beyond what we are disturbed by and question what we can learn from it. My lessons always seem to be around tolerance and patience, two things my mom always accused me of not having enough of 😉 As far back as I can remember, I have always been a rebel. Children of alcoholics are often deemed anti authoritarian.

Back to the meme… We grow up in a society that seemingly already has quite the established structure of what we should do and be in life. I remember knowing as a child that I was artistic; I loved to write, loved to paint, love to sing and play music. I also remember knowing that I would not bear a child. After years of rebellious behavior as a teen, the time came for me to possibly follow suit. Was I going to college? Was I going to get THAT perfect job, get married, build/buy a house, purchase all the proper insurances, have 2.5 kids and live happily ever after enslaved by someone else’s idea of what my life should be? OR was I going to follow my heart and my dreams and live a life that I designed, not one that society designed for me? For many years I struggled with the fact that I did not live in the “norm”. Like George Carlin suggested many times in his comedic routines, I have ALWAYS QUESTIONED EVERYTHING and came to my own conclusions about what worked for me. Once I did my own investigation, I found that my ideals usually didn’t follow what society favored… Nonetheless, I persisted not withstanding many challenging times both emotionally and financially. But I sure learned something from every single experience I had and it has made me the happy and confident person I am today. And although there are many people I know that poo-poo my at times gravely outspoken nature and free-spirited way of living, what matters most is that I AM HAPPY. And as the Buddha said to his students who questioned THE way to happiness… He said, “There is NO way to happiness. Happiness is THE way”! My motto has always been do what makes you happy as long as you are not hurting anyone else. So when people ask me what I do, I answer that I work every day to maintain my happiness 🙂

So to all the younger folks who might be reading this, I advise you to FOLLOW YOUR BLISS! Take the time to find out who you were before someone told you who you SHOULD be or what you SHOULD be doing in this life. My advice is to first cut your social media time in half. Throw out your TV and read books about real life people who do real life things to change the world! Don’t focus solely on building the bank account because any wise soul knows that money does NOT, and will never buy happiness. Do what you love and enough money to support your passion will follow. Don’t wait for retirement to travel. Go outside every day and consciously breathe in fresh air. Take a spontaneous road trip. Climb a mountain or swim in the frigid ocean. Take the road less traveled. Watch the sunrise and/or the sunset. Do something/anything that makes your heart sing every day. Life is short. Carve out your own path, be proud of it and NEVER look back!

REMEMBER… Life is a journey, not a guided tour 😉

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“SPEAKING OUR TRUTH…

IS THE MOST POWERFUL TOOL WE ALL HAVE.” Oprah 1/7/18

 

Oprah Winfrey Accepts the Cecil B. de Mille Award – Golden Globes 2018

"I want all of the girls watching here now to know, that a new day is on the horizon. And when that new day finally dawns, it will be because of a lot of magnificent women, many of whom are right here in this room tonight, and some pretty phenomenal men, fighting hard to make sure that they become the leaders who take us to the time when nobody ever has to say, 'me too' again." Oprah Winfrey accepts the 2018 Cecil B. de Mille award. #GoldenGlobes

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THIS EXTRAORDINARY TIME…

TO BE ALIVE!

While many are focused on all the negative events currently transpiring in our country and around the world, I am choosing to look to astrology, as well as to Spirituality, and point my own energy/focus to the inevitable evolution of our consciousness that exists underneath the rapidly lifting veils of our egos. Some examples of current attempted constrictions to keep us distracted in our egos are government, mainstream media, wealth or poverty, and religion. I do believe in our lifetimes we shall see MAJOR paradigm shifts of all of these when we realize that we are ENERGY and that WE as energetic beings ARE ONE, always have been one and we will always be one 🙂

One of my favorite astrologers who resides in San Francisco, Susan Levitt, writes this for the month of November, November 2017 is the month of the Dog in Chinese astrology. Dog traits are honesty, integrity, and speaking up for the underdog. The truth is sniffed out, and injustice is exposed. During this Dog month, women have come forward to openly speak about sexual assault, abuse, and harassment. And people believe the women, instead of placing shame and blame for wearing the wrong clothing, saying no when she really meant yes, or other insane justifications.”

So, let’s say bye-bye to sexism, to abuse, to chauvinism… The feminine is rapidly arising… Go girlfriends, go!!!

Having been born in 1964, The following taken from Wikipedia >  “The Sixties”, as they are known in both scholarship and popular culture, is a term used by historians, journalists, and other objective academics; in some cases nostalgically to describe the counterculture and revolution in social norms about clothing, music, drugs, dress, sexuality, formalities, and schooling; and in others pejoratively to denounce the decade as one of irresponsible excess, flamboyance, and decay of social order. The decade was also labeled the Swinging Sixties because of the fall or relaxation of social taboos especially relating to racism and sexism that occurred during this time. Commentator Christopher Booker[4] described this era as a classical Jungian nightmare cycle, where a rigid culture, unable to contain the demands for greater individual freedom, broke free of the social constraints of the previous age through extreme deviation from the norm. He charts the rise, success, fall/nightmare and explosion in the London scene of the 1960s. Several Western nations such as the United States, United Kingdom, France, and West Germany turned to the political left in the early and mid-1960s. <taken from Wikipedia> I almost feel as if I was born a decade too late. Due to the fact that I had much older sisters who were coming of age during this decade, I soaked into my cells a great deal of what transpired during this era. My beliefs and ideals definitely run alongside the deconstruction of rigid ideals and social constraints. My music listening preferences remain in the 60’s – 80’s. 50 years later we are seeing a resurgence of 60’s ideals alongside a further necessary breakdown of racism, sexism, and all that further separates us vs. unites us as a species. We are definitely being called at this time to step into our higher selves, the multi-dimensional aspects of our BEing.

So, will you succumb to the desperate tug of your ego to remain in the 3rd dimensional realm, or will you choose to evolve, to experience the multi-dimensional aspects of your higher self? The choice is yours! I can guarantee the journey in the higher realms is far more adventurous and pleasurable than the rigid illusions currently being presented by our media and our government to attempt to keep us trapped in ego misery.

SO… WHY NOT EVOLVE ALREADY? The ride is SO MUCH MORE FUN!!!

Namasté

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DARE TO THINK FOR YOURSELF

“Stop watching the news!
Because the news contrives to frighten you
To make you feel small and alone
To make you feel that your mind isn’t your own” – Morrissey – “Spent the Day in Bed”

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